Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Fortune tellers?

This morning in prayer time, that was the question God moved us to. Are you a fortune teller?
I didn't think I was. But I have had a picture in my mind of what I was shooting for in life. I wanted relationship. Another person wanted control--she knew what she wanted her childrens' lives to look like. Another person wanted happiness for her children and was helping them get there. We saw the target---and we were shooting for it! (Hello...tap..tap..tap. Anyone out there?) When God showed me that my goal wasn't relationship, but to love...it shifted my whole paradigm. I saw in one moment that I was shooting at the wrong target. And now that I know there's a whole new target, do you know what I see? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. It's as if there's a veil over this new target. I don't know what I'm shooting for. I know I'm shooting for love...but I don't know what it looks like or what the end result will be! But I do know this: "For we are God's [own] handiwork (His workmanship), recreated in Christ Jesus, [born anew] that we may do those good works which God predestined (planned beforehand) for us [taking paths which He prepared ahead of time], that we should walk in them [living the good life which He prearranged and made ready for us to live]." Ephesians 2:10.
God knows what the target is. It's not veiled to Him. But as long as I had a picture in my mind of what my future (or my kids' futures) looked like, I was manipulating. I was a fortune teller--looking into my own future, declaring what I saw and wanted, and then trying to make it happen. I was trying to be the god of my own life.
What we saw this morning is that we have to die to our expectations. And those expectations have been partnering with fear and assumption. We've tried to predestine our own paths--or those of our children--and our fear of it not happening the way we imagined has caused us to manipulate or control or criticize.
Do I want a happy ending? Then I have to submit. I must submit to God and His good plan for my life! I can't take matters into my own hands. I've got to dedicate these hands to God and build according to His master plan....not use them to read a crystal ball.
"Every wise woman builds her house, but the foolish one tears it down with her own hands." Proverbs 14:1


amy wright said...

That last verse is going to have me thinking.

Rachel said...

The verse from Ephesians and Proverbs really struck a cord ...actually the whole blog did. I will be meditating on this for a few days.

Emily Suzanne said...

I really enjoy Prov. 14:1... makes me think...