Thursday, December 8, 2022

A Steadman Christmas Blizzard Pt.2



My eyes were still closed and I hadn’t stretched or moved in my warm snuggly bed. It was that delicious in-between moment I treasure. But I felt a small, warm breath next to my ear and heard David whisper, “Mommy, it’s shnowing!” I smiled before my eyes popped open. “It is?” I asked. “Show me, David!” His little grin appeared and he took my hand and led me to the window. Sure enough—it was shnowing. 

It snowed slowly at first and caused Steadman Farms to look like a winter wonderland. It was pristine as it fell without any wind to cause drifts. After we went downstairs, Caleb told the boys, “Boots and saddles, boys! We’ve got cows and horses to feed and I need your help.” Every Steadman male squirmed as they put arms in sleeves, feet in boots, and hands in mittens. But they were dressed and I was looking forward to a 30-minute reprieve. The boys whooped and hollered as they ran out into the snow. I watched until the first snowball was thrown and turned to start breakfast.  Then I hoped to put my feet up a few minutes. 

Caleb was determined to teach the boys to love farming at a young age. So everything he did with them was a teachable moment and he made them do actual chores. We believed it was healthy for children to help support the family enterprise with age-appropriate hard work. Henry loved to fork hay to the animals and the twins took turns pouring water into troughs—and all over themselves. Caleb later told me that the twins teeth were chattering (mostly because they’d gotten themselves wet) and began asking to go to the house early. “Boys, we can’t go in until all the chores are done. And we have to stay together to make it through the snow and not fall,” Caleb told them. Henry replied, “I don’t care if I fall—I’d just make a snow angel on the ground!” And then they were all clammering, “Can we make snow angels?” The animals were all ok.  

That was the last of the tame and gentle snow. By noon, the wind arrived and we were being pummeled by fierce snow. Frosty wouldn’t have stayed out in it! After lunch, Caleb told the boys, “It’s nap time, boys. You need some rest and Mom & I need to make some phone calls. So no getting up. If you can’t sleep, you can read a book. Give me a BIG hug before you go up.”  Those boys loved books. I suspected each boy would read until their tired eyes drooped.  

I could tell Caleb was getting nervous. We hadn’t had a storm like this in…well, ever.  The first person Caleb called was Jake Leathers, the man who’d trained him in farming. Jake told him, “Caleb, we’ve done all we can to prepare. Now it’s in the good Lord’s hands. I suggest you make sure you’ve got enough firewood by the back door so it’s easy to get to. We just need to pray no pipes burst and no animals die.” Caleb put on his coat and went out to heed Jake’s advice. And while he was out, he checked on the animals.  “So far, so good,” he told me when he came in. 

Feet were pounding on the stairs as three little boys ran in squealing, “Can we build a snowman?” Caleb had to break the news, “Sorry guys! The snow is coming too hard and too fast. It’s not safe. I’m sure we’ll get to build a snowman soon, but not today.” Instead they helped their dad stoke the fire and Matthew asked, “Can we make popcorn in the fire bowl thingy?” So Matthew got to help with the first round of popcorn while the other boys helped me make hot chocolate for everyone. This was cozy. As I sat down, I thought, “I really must have overdone it yesterday racing from one grocery store to the next trying to find everything I needed.” My neck was tense and my back seemed to be having spasms. It felt good to sit down. I decided to take a hot bath later. The boys were tossing popcorn in the air to see how many dad could catch.  He was pretty good at this game—he loved popcorn. We could see the snow, watch the roaring fire, enjoy the company of one another, and hear the eerie wind howl. And then…

The lights went out. 

A Steadman Christmas Blizzard Pt.1



“Henry, NOOOOOO!!!” I tried to stop my six-year-old son from tracking manure in from the barn—it was an almost daily occurrence. That boy is his father’s son! His love for animals, fields, tractors—and preaching—filled our home daily. Fortunately, the home we’d purchased from Mr. Troyer was large enough to contain every object Henry brought in from his excursions around the farm. Unfortunately, his twin brothers caught the brunt of the daily sermons Henry preached to assert his big brother status. 

The twins had come three years after Henry was born. And they came in this order:
Matthew Zechariah Steadman (5 lbs. 4 oz.) and
David Jeremiah Steadman (4 lbs. 3 oz.). Caleb and I were careful in choosing our children’s names because we believed their spiritual DNA was wrapped up in those names. Matthew’s name means: Gift of God—God remembers—Farmer. David’s name means: Beloved—God is lifted high—Farmer. They were born while Caleb was trying to get the cotton planted that year, so my mom and Caleb’s mom took turns helping us out. I don’t ever remember being as sleep-deprived as I was in those early days. But…we survived!

Even though the twins are identical, their personalities are completely opposite. Matthew is the adventurer and learned to climb to the top of the fridge early. I walked outside one day and heard his little voice say, “Look at me, Mommy!”  He was hanging upside down from a tall tree branch. I tried not to gasp and make him fall. I never knew where I was going to find that boy! His laugh is as big as his heart. David, on the other hand, is quiet and easily entertained. Give him a toy he has to figure out and he is quiet for hours. He has such a gentle spirit—I have to make sure he isn’t overlooked by Caleb & I or overwhelmed by Henry & Matthew. If Matthew can’t engage his twin brother to go on an adventure, he’ll follow his big brother out the door while yelling, “Wait for ME!!”. Henry takes his job as big brother seriously. He’ll say, “Matthew, don’t pick up the big worms—you’re too little!!”  I never know what I’ll find in the pockets of those two on laundry day. 

All of the boys love riding in the tractor with their daddy. Caleb seldom takes all three. It’s just too crazy. But the boys get to take turns riding in the tractor and we often switch boys when we take lunch to daddy in the fields. Caleb is gentle yet firm with the boys. He wants them to learn to love the land like he does, but to also learn to respect each piece of machinery on our property. He often tells them, “God gave us these things to take care of them. We never misuse them or leave things out to rust. Always put everything back where you got it.” Matthew just has a hard time remembering. 

When Jason & Jennifer Wilson, our youth minister and his wife, come to our home with Jude, the noise level skyrockets!  Jude is just two weeks younger than the twins. Those three had given Miss Shirley even more gray hair while keeping them in the church nursery. Good thing she’d married George—she roped him into giving her a hand trying to tame those boys. She wasn’t shy either—she’d come to the back of the auditorium and tap her watch at Caleb if she’d had enough!

Jason told us when he dropped by, “You know that storm that’s pushing it’s way in? It’s been upgraded to a blizzard category!” Caleb and I looked at each other. I could tell he wasn’t surprised by that information and had been protecting me. I was instantly wondering how well-stocked we were with food and wood for the fireplace. But my BIGGEST worry was, “How will we get to the hospital?” I was pregnant again and due January 1–just two weeks away. This time, we both agreed we didn’t want to find out the sex of the baby. After three boys, we just assumed. I knew I was destined to be a “boy mom.” I packed a canister of Christmas cookies for Jason to take home and sat down to make out a list. I’d need to make a trip to the grocery store while Caleb went to string rope from the house to the barn with the help of his sons. We couldn’t afford to lose livestock during a blizzard—and they’d need food and water twice a day. The rope would guide Caleb in case of a whiteout. I needed to remember to get batteries for the boys’ flashlights! That always kept them entertained. And we certainly needed extra lights when our electricity went out—which happened with the slightest wind. My part-time preacher-husband, Caleb, planned to call church members and make sure everyone was ok and well-stocked—and to advise everyone we’d cancel church if a blizzard came. We would be ready. Christmas was coming…a blizzard was coming…and a baby was coming. If only baby #4 would wait until a blizzard melted. 

Wednesday, November 2, 2022

Submit



Have you ever gotten a “spanking from the Lord?” I did today. I was cleaning my garage and opened a tub which held some of my journals (I’ve journaled for about 40 years.)  My first thought was, “I should throw all of these away!”  But then I decided to read one before making that decision. 

I could have almost superimposed my current journal over this one. Circumstances were different (2011 was a HARD year!). But my response hadn’t changed much. Hence, the “spanking.”  

God was still telling me I needed to submit. That’s a word our culture seldom uses anymore. But to submit is to yield to those in authority. You won’t submit to earthly authority if you aren’t submitting to God. And unfortunately…submission isn’t my first response. 

After I read my journal from 2011, God told me, “You won’t change until you submit.” I can try to run from my problems and do things my way…or I can submit to God and change.  Those are the only two choices.  

Here’s the good news: God only disciplines us because He loves us and is committed to us. He wants to conform us to the image of His Son. And…He’s more concerned about our response than our circumstances. 

What are the chances that I would choose to read THIS journal today??  100%.  God is committed to change—especially changing me.  

I have to be honest. It’s really tempting to get rid of all of my journals. I’m afraid to read any more.  

Saturday, October 29, 2022

Dread



Do you have a sense of dread? Is there something or someone looming over you causing fear or anxiety? I mean…there’s enough going on in our world right now to fill us all with a sense of dread, right?

Dread could be so hidden that we don’t even recognize it for what it is. Is there a day of the week which fills you with anxiety? Do you get sweaty palms knowing you’ll see someone tomorrow? Are you stressed in a certain setting? Do the holidays fill you with dread? Are you anxious when you listen to the news? (I mean…who isn’t!)

God warned Isaiah (Isaiah 8) about a coming invasion by Assyria. He also told him not to join in with the conspiracy theories nor to be afraid of the threats. He said, “The LORD of hosts, Him you shall call holy; let Him be your fear, and let Him be your dread.”

I know that when I’m fearing something or someone, my eyes and my heart are in the wrong place. I’ve exalted them above God. I feel powerless and out of control. I’m afraid of how I’ll be affected by what someone else does. The truth is…I never had control. And I can’t control the actions of others. And God, who has control, is only allowing things in my life to strengthen me and change me.  

Satan delights seeing us fear and dread—it’s right where he wants us! If we fear, we won’t step out in obedience to God. Our courage has melted. We’ll be silent when we should speak up. We’ll hide instead of engaging in battle. 

We need to let God be our fear and our dread. If our eyes are on Him and we’re convinced of His strength and control, we can live free of fear, anxiety, and dread. There’s a great battle going on in our minds, isn’t there?

Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’
Isaiah 41:10

For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ,” 
II Corinthians 10:4-5

Friday, October 28, 2022

Rest



We live in a fast-paced world which is quickly spinning out of control. It’s imperative that we take time to rest—truly rest.  

But you know what I’ve found?  When I have a day to rest, my mind kicks in.  “I should be doing this. This would really be a good day to minister to Mrs. Widow.  I need to clean the bathroom. I’m wasting time sitting here. Etc., etc., etc.” My mind most often works against me. (And we know Satan loves to fill our mind with destructive thoughts as well!)

God knew our minds would try to control us. He knew we’d imagine scenarios we should take care of. He knew we’d ignore the rest we needed. So he told us, “Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;” 

We’re to do the work of casting down thoughts and imaginations (reasoning hostile to God).  God has commanded us to rest. (Remember the sabbath day, to keep it holy—set apart to God.) He also gave us the promise of rest. (Hebrews 4:1) God gave us the example of rest by resting after He’d created the world and everything in it. We also know when our bodies are tired—we just have to acknowledge it. It may be that your spirit (mind, will, emotions) are tired. Are you resting and feeding them? You may have to take a step back and determine what kind of rest you need!

When is the last time you rested? Have you acknowledged you need rest—or do you just keep going? It also bears the question (for me), “Who am I seeking to please—God or man?”

We need rest. Now more than ever. 

Monday, October 24, 2022

Armor of God



I had a revelation recently. In Ephesians 6, when Paul was instructing believers to put on the armor of God so they could STAND…he was actually telling them in six different ways to be in the Word of God.  

The Belt of Truth. John 14:6. “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father but by me.” John 1:1. “In the beginning was the Word and the Word was with God and the Word was God.” Jesus=Truth=Word
•Breastplate of Righteousness. What is righteousness?  Right living. How do we know how to live “right?”  Psalm 119:172. “My tongue shall speak of your Word, for all your commandments are righteousness.” Righteousness=Word
•Sandals of the Gospel of Peace. We are to walk in the gospel of peace. What is that?  Where is the gospel found?  The Word. Romans 10:15. “How beautiful are the feet of those who preach the gospel of peace…” 
•Shield of Faith. Where do we get faith?  The Word. Romans 10:17. “So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the Word of God.” Faith=Hearing Word
•The Helmet of Salvation. Why do we need a helmet? To protect our minds. How do we protect our minds? II Corinthians 10:5. “…taking every thought captive to the obedience of Christ.” Christ=Word
•Sword of the Spirit. Ephesians 6:17 clearly tells us what this is. “…and the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God.”  Sword=Word

Paul says four times in this passage to “STAND.” The only way we can stand in these days is to be in the Word of God daily! We need to read it, hear it, meditate on it, eat it, digest it, speak it, believe it, hold on to it, use it against the enemy. 

But if we’re not in the Word, we’ll fall…and probably fall for anything. We won’t know what is right, what is true, how to guard our minds, how to share the truth, not how to defeat the enemy.  

STAND: Be fixed in your mind. Set. Make firm. Fix. Establish. Be kept in place. Sustain the force and authority of the Word. Be balanced. Be firm and immovable. Be of a steadfast mind. Don’t waiver. Don’t hesitate. 

Saturday, October 1, 2022

God said…



Have you ever wondered what God said over you when you were created?

In Luke 1, God declared, through angels, who John the Baptist and Jesus would be—before they were even conceived. Those words revealed their purpose on earth. 

What did God declare over you and me?
Maybe we should ask Him. He has a kingdom purpose for us. And it’s always about Him.